What a joy to be asked to be on a board on subject dear and near to my heart. As a survivor and victor over Childhood Sexual Abuse I have a passion and ministry to bring healing and deliverance to anyone who will receive it from the results of Childhood Sexual Abuse.
I know first-hand what it is to be ravished by my own father, brother and sister. At the age of 4 and my brother was 13; he started raping me over a period of years when we had to share a bedroom in the two bedroom shack that we lived in. My brother and I shared the bunk beds and my sister who is 18 years older than me shared the same bedroom; she slept on a cot or smaller single bed.
My dad was a Pentecostal Evangelist and Associate Pastor when we lived in Pasadena never had a full time job but worked as a cement carrier and a janitor in a woman’s clothing store. He would take me with him sometime in the evening to work and I would see the mannequins some with no clothes on but most dressed very sexy. I would wander around the store while he worked and I would get turned on by the mannequins dressed in panties and bra display outfits. Once I saw my dad doing something with a mannequin and then he saw me playing with one he started to “Diddle me” and told me not to tell.
I discovered later in life that my family thought I was a “cute” or a beautiful baby and that my sister had dressed me in pink as if I was her doll. My sister who is my step sister, but I was raised to believe she was my full sister. As a teenager I saw my sister having a nervous breakdown and I was left at home to watch her because my dad thought she could be healed – she would masturbate in front of me. My sister who was 18 years older than I was also my baby sitter for a long time along with her girlfriends who were twins. These twin sisters also were my sitters when my sister was not available and they also treated me like their little play doll. They played with my little instrument as they played with each other.
You are probably wondering where my mother was! She was working three to four jobs to keep food on our table and provide a place for us live. When you live in a two bed room shack and three people are staying one of those two bed rooms a lot can happen and it did. My mother and father slept in the other bedroom unless we had out of town ministers visiting us.
From all the encounters I had as a child starting at age 4 and going on for some time I progressed into a sexual addict until I had a Significant Emotion Event (SEE) where the Lord told me not to do to my son what was done to me. I go into detail in my soon released memoir: “A Pentecostal Whore.”
From all I have experienced and lived through to become a survivor and victor over Child Sexual Abuse and Sexual Addiction I know by the grace of God that I can give to this organization of the knowledge gain through my years of formal education and on the job experience. My resume lists all my various rolls in corporate America and my current role with my wife in running our Home Care and Temporary Medical Staffing company as our ministry tent work.
The resume does not tell the story of what is in my heart concerning the desire to be a help to whoever will receive of my knowledge and encouragement to know that they too can be an over comer and victor to Child Sexual Abuse. I believe I am a messenger of hope and joy for those who will receive. Being a part of a board that is committed to exposing, confronting and revealing the truth about Childhood Sexual Abuse is exactly what I want to do. To know that we will help Adult survivors with therapy, encourage thousands of people to tell their stories, an established a day to acknowledge Child Sexual Abuse and be a part of an international organization is an awesome task.
At one time I was on thirteen volunteer boards of directors and none of those boards demonstrated what I have seen done after one meeting this week in Philadelphia. Anyone can talk a good game if they know how to talk, but what I have seen with action behind the talk lets me know that we will accomplish much on behave of Childhood Sexual Abuse survivors who will allow us the opportunity to be of service to them and our various communities.
I appreciate the opportunity of being a part of Let Go…Let Peace Come In organization. I will do all in my power to promote the excellence of this organization